Where Am I And What Am I Doing?

I'm welcoming myself and you reading this. I'm asking myself this question: Where am I and what am I doing.



I'm still amazed at where I am in life and what I'm doing. Seriously speaking, before doing what's called 'personal development', I don't remember asking myself such a question. Growing up in church, we would be taught you have to find God's will for your life, and it would be elaborated upon what that means. I still can't recollect though, if that meant anything much in my life, probably, subconsciously, not consciously. I just remember though that, I lived a big part of my life conscious of the fact that, not many people had a clue of what I was about. I was a very quiet person who tried to mind her own business, till stepped upon, not literally of course. That's only when people would find out whether I was angry or happy. I still do find even now, that my feelings are really deep seated, I guess it's a learning process.



If you've checked my profile you'll find out which part of the world I'm at.

For me, coming from a "third world country," I keep asking my husband, by the way, where the second world is, I look around with fascination how human beings are easy to manipulate, as long as they don't want to engage their brains in any given situation. That doesn't exclude me, by the way. I'm just grateful now because I can see it and go along with it sometimes out of my own choice. What I feel sad about is when I see people being manipulated without them realising, by the time their eyes open, they would be fuming with anger at how they would have been so blind. Of course, the manipulators sometimes they're not even aware that's what they're doing, talk about 'blind leading blind!'



My prayer for you reading here is to ask yourself if you're consciously aware of your environment, who you're with, what you're doing, saying and thinking. If that's the case, you'll be grateful and not look back in anger, or look ahead in fear, but you'll look around in awareness. Awareness of the blessings you and I have, first by being alive, able to catch and release a breath and by knowing that the next minute, hour or day will turn out largely upon decisions you will make, consciously or unconsciously, willing or unwillingly, etc.



Bye for now

Zanele